LATE NIGHT POST

Today I'm writing from my cousine's house.On my right side,there's Indo-Pak match's going on.I'm already fed up of the mosquitos in here.I just wanna get away from allahabad.Only Kalki can now stop this place from turning into a hell.

I'm trying since a month to get IIT-jee papers of previous years on the internet.But now I think it's even harder than qulifying for studiyng in the institute.
Today I got a feeling after reading an issue of SARITA magazin(published from Delhi Press)that how weak & fragile our Hindu community is.In the magazine's issue,our sacred GARUNPURAN was announced as LOOT-PURAN . The author also commented on Lord Vishnu's AUKAAT .
But the thing which disturbedme the most was that though the issue was an old one , no one protested against the this plot of hurting pious hindu's feelings & gaining cheap popularity.
well!!!now my cousin's pesatering me to stop as it's already very late.

My first serious post

11.09.2009
As soon as I open my science books,my conscience begins to question"WHY?""Why're you studying?"it asks,inspite the knowledge that it'd not get an answer.
But,tormented by this questions,I'm writing today to find an answer for it,as well as for myself.It's really disgusting & irritating,not being able to understand the subjects which you loved & dreamt before you exactly knew what they're.
I dreamt to be a scientist,a servant of science,but I dread going on the way which's considered most sure to give the yield.Not that I fear the hard-work,but here,I do dread failure,failure in getting the science I want to.By science,I mean the answers of WHY'S & HOW'S of the facts & not their applications i.e.,technology.
Now-a-days,everyone's talking of IIT-JEE & AIEEE.I too wanna qualify them,if they'd provide me the true knowledge,not just fill me with scientific facts & tell me how to create extremely large & infimitesimely small circuits.
I too 've joined a coaching,which's considered an essential shortcut to IIT.But I fear the way they teach,just numericals,with negligible WHY'S & HOW'S.I like more what they teach at school,but I fear asking competition level Q's & A's at school.

I even wonder what'd I do if at IIT's or AIEEE colleges,they just teach how to collide more-n-more sub-atomies,to harness energy,but refuse to tell why likes repel & unlikes attract each other,telling that it's useless there & 'd just waste other students' time!
I wanna learn science,not technology.I'm a better consumdr than producer.I'd love to use it for discovering WHY'S & HOW'S,but I think it'd be better for me & the world if I don't use them in creating new technologies.The world's already full of loosers,to it's neck.
What I hate the most of studies is maths.It can be most interesting than all 3-D games put together.But you'd also tell where outside maths notebook's it useful.I mean,maths's just a tool of science,&maths which's not applicable in science,is just useless.The syllabus of maths'd be designed in such a way that only those parts which're used in phy & chem that year'd taught to students of XI & XII."Unapplicable maths"'d be left for those who opt for it in higher studies.
DEAR READERS(if any)!I'm sorry for being so irregular.You see,I don't've a comp.& I'm not allowed much often to use internet.Besides,there've been many high-n-low tides in my life during last 14 days.So keep reading & plz.,plz.,suggest me cheapest good laptop or comp. you'd find.(I insist on cheapness coz.,if,even by mistake,I'm selected in a central gov.'s college or university,I'll be surely having a brand-new laptop.)So plz.help me in being regular.
With all love,yours

alovinglotus.